the end of first semester

bismillah..

em, actually my english is not good at all, but i want to practice and try to write this post in english...
if there's any mistake, can you please let me know about it? write it in the comment's column.
thank you :)

This semester is such a fibrous experience to me. why?
huu.. because i have to face the BIG DIFFERENT atmosphere here.
everythings new.
new surrounding, new culture, new lesson, new friends.. new..new.....
i have takes much time to adapt all of it.

...and my journey is not easy.. there are many problems that i don't ever had before.
yes, new one

Problems is the normal thing that everyone will face it too. but mine is little bit different to others. That's because i'm too stressed thinking about all my problems, and this is my first time face it all alone. There's many quote saying "keep calm and bla bla bla.." but it's really don't even works to me!

I have got much depressed and easily to get down.
Maybe i'm too depends on others before this, then that's why it's hard to me to adapt all the things alone.

But now, i have learn such a big lesson. LESSON ABOUT LIFE. oh no, it's all about the REAL LIFE is it.
such as :
I should keep improving my ibadah especially the basic things like solat, recite Al-Quran.
I have to keep close to Allah's first and have a good relationship with HIM.
I should not running from the problems but i have to take it and handle its well.
I also should makes more friends around me and be nice to everyone. don't be arrogant.

yes, I have learned. when I flashback about my life in this term, "crying" just like my hobby. hee.
It's really make me relief. I know, my tears did'nt solve my problems but at least it makes me feel that I still have a space to express my thought, my anger and my frustation. When there were no one hear me, I'm not alone. I have Allah, i'm cry and tell all my uneasy feel to Allah. He know EVERYTHING but He still hear my heart screaming.

but it's all about past..
Start from now and forward, i will be a new Amirah.
I'm not changing but i'm keep improving.
Thanks to Allah because always hear me, help me and love me. i feel it.

I hope, next semester will be fine and even better. amiin ><